I’m not sure how we got here so quickly, and at the same time, I’m not sure how it took so long. In a week, I will be leaving home for Des Moines to attend orientation for the bar exam. And probably will be trying to not go crazy.
It seems as though the summer has flown by, in the sense that I only have a week left and don’t particularly feel anywhere near ready to sit down and take the bar exam. I’ve had a lot on my plate this summer, between visiting family and two weddings. But I don’t feel any less prepared. I managed to basically stay in line with the paced program all summer — even when I got behind I caught back up. I’ve put the time in, so hopefully all will be fine.
On the other hand, there were days that felt as though they would never end — and every last one of them had a lecture to watch. Sitting down on Monday was always so brutal, knowing that I had five whole days worth of lecture to get through that week. I’ve kind of enjoyed the time since the lectures ended because I’ve always viewed studying as a solitary activity. Groups can distract me, and make me focus on things I don’t need to review. Now it is just me and my books, flashcards, and practice questions.
I’ve been vascillating between confidence and absolute self-doubt, but so have most people I know. Bar prep has truly been a roller coaster ride, and with Barbri in particular, I kind of feel like they do that to you on purpose. It’s just enough to scare you into knowing that you have to work really hard or your chance of failing goes up exponentially.
This is truly crunch time — there are seven little days between me and the bar exam, and I have a lot of work to do. I’ve got this.